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As part of being kind to myself week today I have been saying yes rather a lot.

“Essbee want to go and see fame the musical?” “Yes”, “Essbee want to go to Malta next year?” “Um yes”, “Essbee want to go and eat some fire and walk on some stilts?” “Erm well yes I guess?”

These are now down on my diary for things to do.

Hint to self – when you’re feeling a bit down dont phone your weird and wonderful friend who would rather be sky diving than sitting still. The sky diving she can do alone though. I have done it once but its been ticked off my list as a – not to be repeated thanks  – experience.

Tonight i’m off out to my favourite restaurant in Glasgow for a few hours. Knowing the people i’m going with I wont be too sober but it should be a fun night.

I am much happier today but a large chunk of me is still missing him but given the facts in the cold light of day who was I missing – a fantasy i’d created or the real person? I’m hoping for the real person but slightly more realistic is the fantasy i’d created. Either way i’m moving on and getting there.

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